Went with Korin on ~Saturday to see a mortgage advisor ! It's all going to be very tight but we think she can do it - in principal she has a mortgage offer and we hope that it all goes through, but I cannot tell you how much I am already worrying about how much I will miss her - I know we have our ups and downs at times, but really we are good friends and laugh a lot and cry together, and if she does move I will feel very lonely indeed.
I pray though that everything goes through for her as she needs to live her own life now. she's 25. I truly wish she could meet someone really nice though and be happy too.
Bereft ? I shouldn't keep thinking about 'our' Marian, but she really did shit on me from a great height. I don't know if she is feeling upset about not contacting me ? just so she can stay with a husband who has been a bit SHIT for a very very long time. 8 weeks now, and although I have said I now hate her, I really don't. We used to have a laugh on the phone sometimes, there was a lot of negatives, but we did have a laugh too. I miss that. I don't have anyone as close as that anymore, I have 'friends' but not ones that I meet up with for lunch or a cuppa ............... I could have, a lot of my customers have always said 'come see me' - lets do this together etc, and I always refused. I had 'our' Marian to confide in - talk to - laugh with. THEN I think the last two years she hasn't bothered meeting up with me or going out with me or inviting me over to hers etc and every time her shite of a husband came home and she was on the phone to me she 'had to go' ? but I still feel bereft. It's been a bad weekend thinking about never EVER seeing her again.
Went out for my birthday meal................... to Turpins. It seemed posher than usual but the prices weren't actually too bad considering 5 of us for £136 including the tip. We didn't have puddings - I really couldn't having had Camembert and loads of bread and then a bloody pizza wrong choices really but it was cooked well, glad I stopped eating half way though the pizza though otherwise I think i might have been sick.
Today has rushed by...........................as usual washing and tidying and cooking and sorting stuff with Korin, Will do another post about that. Still feeling down and back at work as usual tomorrow. I wish I could do 3 days at 5 hours rather than 3 hours every day - hate going in every day and getting up early every day. Oh my goodness I do moan.
35 emails later - broken chairs, to and fro no deliveries - delivering to wrong address etc. nightmare. tnis is a cobbled together chair and is different colours ! - but we got our money back and so Luna does have a chair but it's not as good as we wanted it to be. But in time for her Baby Shower on 21st. Praying everything is fine, 3rd February she is due.
I'm 60 - OMG that kinda snook up and bit me bum really - inside I still feel about 30, just a terrible shock when I look in a mirror! Anyway, I am pretty proud of me self to say that I was a very successful alternative health therapist - mainly practicing reflexology but also qualified in lots of other disciplines, I also taught alternative health classes for 5 years and loved it - I particularly LOVE colour therapy and Feng Shui. AND I also did a diploma in Interior Design which I wish I had persued as a career. My current love is papercrafting, oh and papercrafting and papercrafting.
Unfortunately I had to return to a regular job in Dec 2008 in administration with NHS because of the recession ........ which has now gone on for 8 LONG years ! I can't see me returning to self employment though although I have revived my reflexology business it really is still very much part time - it's nice to receive a regular monthly income albeit doing something that I don't particularly enjoy. Sad isn't it.